Life is not the same

I am on several of these groups. I found this site through my search for answers about Long COVID and doctors having no idea. When I got sick, I was almost 4 years sober from alcoholism and addiction. I always went to 12 step meetings, socialized with sober friends and exercised daily. I love AA and it saved my life, however as I have this damn virus, I have to pick and choose how I use my energy that I get with the help of medications I take. Today, I had to call out from my internship (grad student) due to malaise, fatigue and feeling overall terrible. I am taking things a day at a time, which helps, however there are days when I wonder what is going to happen to me. This is one of those days. I must start doing AA online again. I miss being around people, but I don't feel good in the evenings or mornings. Meetings, in person are usually in the evenings. I have become isolated from the people that I once thought my friends. It is difficult to explain this virus to people. I miss having an active life. I recently had my 8 year sobriety birthday and have not gone to get a chip as I have not felt like it physically. I also lost my partner 2 years ago on the 18th. This time of year is difficult. Don't get me wrong, I am grateful for sobriety and what I can do as it can always be worse, but I am also tired and get in the dregs sometimes. I just needed to vent. Grateful for all of you as well. Whether you know it or not, you are helpful to me.