I need support: Financial burden affecting my health

Yasemin,
I am going through some of the same things. I know that I will survive the issues because so many other people have survived them in the past. Knowing that they did, helps me in my resolve. I do not have a partner, cannot be forthcoming with my family very much, but do have faith in God and that helps a lot. I ask my church for prayer, I go to pantries for food, I juggle every month to get bills paid. I don't have food on my budget and sometimes do not eat all day. It is a tough version of the, 'intermittent fasting.' I lost my job last year and have not been hired by anyone else. I am disabled and 68, so probably will not get another job with all the newly unemployed, able-bodied individuals who are now looking for jobs. I do have SSI but have had 4 surgeries in the past 2 years and without the job income, it is very tough. I have had to ask for assistance with rent, food, and other issues. Charities are out there for a reason, don't be too proud to ask for help. Their purpose is to help you, please let them. It hurts me to ask sometimes, but with their assistance, my lot is improving. You are not alone, I am praying for you, and please know that God loves you and don't do anything to harm yourself. I don't want to declare bankruptcy, but if I have to, I will, and if I do, no one can judge me. They will try, but they are not me or you or in our shoes. Do what is best for you. Survive and create a new future for yourself. It sounds bleak and hollow, when someone says these things to you, I know. I do not go out either, because I cannot afford to and I do feel isolated sometimes, and I have lost some shallow friends. I am very thankful for my church, it's positive messages, and for the membership and their prayers. I am so sorry this is happening to you, me and so many others currently. I don't have the added hassle of a bad partner. I do have faith in an awesome God who, I know, will see me through it all. Tell your Dr. how you are doing, sometimes your insurance offers assistance with finding help for various issues that you are going through. When you find charities to assist you, let them, pantries can be sad, but there's more than one and some churches offer assistance also. I know that God has me and will improve my situation, because He is only Good and He states that He is always with me and that He loves me over and over in His Word. It is sooo hard in the physical sense, but He is not tied down to the physical, He is Spiritual and can do anything. He is constant, whereas our situations are always changing. Try going to a Bible based church and getting support from the Minister and fellow members, prayers are wonderfully powerful. Don't ever give up.

@yaseminkilinc, I'm here and I'm listening. It can help to post your feelings here on this forum. It sounds like you could use more personal and professional help.

I encourage you to contact the 988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline (https://988lifeline.org/)
You can call or text 988 any time for immediate help and to talk with a trained counsellor. They can also help guide you to local resources to deal with your financial situation.

Financial debt is a heavy burden, but there are people who can help. Try FindHelp https://www.findhelp.org/. FindHelp is a place to find free or reduced-cost resources health care and much more, including financial and debt guidance. Simply enter your zip code to find resources close to you.

The first step today is to try and eat properly. You need your health and strength to get through this.

I hope you will reach out to a trusted adult who you feel comfortable with sharing your feelings. I’d encourage you to select someone who might be a teacher, neighbor, pastor, professional, someone at your school, someone you respect and feel would have your best interest. Sometimes reaching out beyond your family and friends to a more neutral person is refreshing. We all experience stressors in our life. We all carry baggage from life experiences, and we all differ in the amount of stress we can tolerate. Some of us have depression, anxiety, or maybe another kind of mental health issue. We have a choice in how we deal with it. I encourage you to reach out to someone sooner than later. A moderator provided several resources to consider. Just remember life isn’t always easy for anyone. It can get very messy. That is when a person can find that there are many people in our communities that really have a sincere desire to provide an ear to listen and may offer some direction that can be helpful. Know that many, many people are in messy situations that seem hopeless. There is help available and making that connection with someone can be such a positive move. They can direct you to others who may have professional experience with working with others, or may be a person who you bond with and form a forever friendship. You took a BIG step by asking for support on here. I have confidence you will take another step after you read contributions shared on here. I wish you well and hope your days will become easier. Getting out for a walk and checking out nature will likely give you a little lift now that spring is kind of here! Do something positive intentionally each day for someone else to feel good. It will give you a good feeling too! Hugs

Thank you for caring about me, but i am not religious. My family follows Islam, but i have been neutral towards the idea of god for about eight years...

I was surprised how much our live, thinking and actions depends on the chemical status of our body.
Emotions that triggers our actions and gives stimulus are a chemical reaction that takes place in your body also. So I fixed all the deficiency and decreased Thyroid TSH level lower then 2, it helped to overcome the hardest times, here some other supplements:
https://connect.mayoclinic.org/comment/1268808/

Yeasmin
Hi, I am a 58 year old woman who has delt with depression since I was in my teens. I have attempted suicide several times because felt like nobody cared about my feelings.
I had four children who are now 40, 39, 38, and 37 years old. My husband was an alcoholic who would leave for work and not come home for days, Luckily I worked at a Motel at night and take my kids and put them in a room to sleep. Anyhow I can understand the financial hardship, and wanting to give up.
Please find a crisis center. They can help you find a way to cope with all the feelings you have bottled up so that you can deal with the problems and find wzys to make them.better.

Hello, You have so much going for you, don't give up, keep fighting make wise choices, If your not happy make a wise choice be smart change things
You have control of you,
look around the world is full of homeless people, handicap people, people in physical pain day and night, some have physical disfigurement, yet they keep getting up everyday. If I may add most of what we experience in the physical are spiritual attacks Ephesian 6:12
We wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities,against powers,against the rulers. of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places. Not pushing religion on you, with respect. Reading your bible everyday praying.
It is for protection of our mind and the way we think.
We have one life, live it well and in righteousness.
And God will bless you each step you take.

@crazyturtle, you're so right. There is help and calling a crisis center is a good tip. I bet you know first hand that that is easier said than done. You're experience would be an asset in the related support group:
Addiction & Recovery Support Group
https://connect.mayoclinic.org/group/addiction-recovery/
I encourage you to join the discussions there.

@crazyturtle, if you don't mind sharing, what helped you to have the courage to call a crisis center?