Hi everyone, hope I can get some advice, because I'm pretty desperate.. I have been an agoraphobic for years and I I handling my day to day life rather good so far with the help of a few pills (valium if necessery) .
But know I am confronted with some medical issues that bother me very much. Since a few weeks I have been having issues with pain in my.. well it's downstairs so to say. After a few weeks I went to the doctor and he said I have an inflammation . Gave me an antibiotic treatment for ten days. Ciprofloxacine 500 mg twice a day.
At first it seemed to help but today is a bad day again. He told me that he wanted to see me again, because had to examine me some more but that would hurt too much at that moment. (…..)
Now the ten days are almost over and it really didn't do too much.. In my darkest imagination I think: "youll see .. prostate cancer or testical cancer and then you have to go to the hospital and have all kind of operations … " – and I literally can't do that with my panic and agoraphobia…
It is a terrible dillemma and I am making myself crazy with dark thoughts..
I am a bit older yes, 65.. but don't want to die just now. (My neigbour and next door neighbour were diagnosed with prostate cancer , that left a mark on me… dark scaring thoughts running through my head all the time.)
Anyone in this position or some advice please? Because I think I rather duck and cover and avoid the second meeting with my GP.. wait it out. Maybe it will pass..
Please don't judge me for writing such an appearingly trivial problem.. For me it is Huge. The mere thought of hospital ..or being diagnosed with all kind of serieus diseases… I am overwhelmed at the moment.. Maybe it's all in my head and mayby every man has some trouble with it.. I haven't a clue .
Greetings to you all ..