Hitting That Wall
First, I want to apologize if I have offended anyone with regard to my recent posts. I am sleep deprived, have been receiving so many lab results back that I am overwhelmed with all of them. The therapist issue is heavy on my mind because I have to speak with and fire her tomorrow. Good. I remember someone posting (Brandy?) that it was okay to have a pittie party as long as someone was there to pick me up off of the floor when I was done. I have no one to pick me up, so no pity party, just more obsessive art work, that is very helpful to me. I woke up at 3 am this morning covered with Ben and Jerry's double chocolate ice cream, a very bad stomach ache, and the day just went downhill from there. I have now been diagnosed with anemia and iron overload, not surprising based upon bad genes. I cannot talk to my sister about any of my health problems because she is dealing with her 73 year old husband who is in the advanced stages of dementia, and I do not want to add any more stress to her life. I have another sister, but she stopped talking to me 2 years ago because she did not want to hear about my health issues, only recipes. As you can imagine, and perhaps many have felt the same, that sometimes we face so many challenges that we just don't know anymore which one takes precedence. My doctor is referring me to a hematologist now, and quite frankly I am tired of seeing so many specialists.
I also take care of my 84 year old friend/neighbor who has now started having memory issues. I see her every night to ensure she eats, takes her medication and things of that nature. Yesterday I did 3 loads of wash for her as she had refused to let me do her laundry for the past 3 months. Now my challenge is to get her interested in changing her bed and sending the cat vomit covered comforter out to be laundered. I love her dearly as she has been so kind to me. Her friend all but begged me to renew my drivers license so that I could drive her around in her new car, another story I will save for later. While I am not thrilled about "driving Ms. Daisy" I will get my license, use her car and maybe use it to drive over to the coast for the day just to chill out.
Thank you all for your ongoing support as I face all of these challenges. This portal has become a lifeline to me, and I am grateful to all of you who have responded to me. I will remember not to post when I am so tired I cannot keep my eyes wide open.
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Hello. You sound like a very nice and caring individual. Your neighbor is so blessed to have you around. It already is hard getting older with health problems. Hugs and kudos that you are your neighbors person! Take care of yourself.
About 25 years ago, when I first started to deal with never ending chronic pain, I went through a period of sever depression, where I wanted to die and actually tried to end my life. I was hospitalized twice, and no pills, counseling, or psychiatrist could break me out of my depression. It wasn't until my pastor came to the hospital to talk with me that I started to climb out of my depression. I eventually learned that by helping others, it actually helps you, both mentally and spiritually. I found that God has a plan for me, just as he has a plan for everyone, and as you seek to discover and cooperate with God's will your attitude toward Life will change. Your circumstances may not change, but you will be able to handle them better.
Amen! 🙏
i must say Goodday! get this! i have been rushed to the er, on a day i had ni idea that i needed to go! upon that visit they had to give me 3 pints of blood and i didnt even know i felt great, my old man came home and made me go he said i was blew up . with that being said i also have severe anemia a thyroid problem, 2 ruptured eardrum holes almost a (cm) big beyond repair also i have no support ! my ma has dementia i am the baby of eight others and out of all of them she doesnt know me and is/ was my best to the best ever in my entire 50?years friend! mom, confidant anddthe sogial we once had will never be the sane its thecworst stab to my heart ive ever had! i just wanted to letbyou know you are not alone even though i feel the like im alone too were not ! anytime day or not anyday if uou need s chat please dont hesitate! sometimes a strsnger is the best consultation! thank you! have a blessed better day!