Getting through the pain days

It's been a tough week. The cancer itself is fine (still in full remission), but the damage the cancer did to my body has jumped to the foreground. I've been dealing with a lot of pain this week, partly from straining my back moving boxes on the weekend, and partly from compensating for the initial pain. I have to overuse some muscles to make up for the ones that don't work (no nerve signal), and that initial strain seems to have brought my core and hip muscles down like a row of dominoes.

Or, to use a different simile, my body from the middle spine on down feels like a piece of Ikea furniture that's been assembled incorrectly, with stripped screws, crooked pieces, etc. etc. etc.

But I also wonder if some more neural pathways have rebuilt themselves 3+ years after my paraplegia (caused by the tumour compressing my spine), and that's why I'm feeling so many new sensations from the bottom of my ribs on down. Certainly, my right knee suddenly feels less numb than it has since the injury in 2021 -- it's almost normal again. I guess that's a good thing in the long run (you don't expect much nerve recovery after this much time), but it's frustrating suddenly being bombarded with all these new pains this week, when I used to have nature's epidural blocking them.

No question to ask. Just needed to vent. Thank you all for listening. 🙂