Facing Cancer Recurrence, PTSD & Acknowledging Mental Health

@colleenyoung Just got everything updated--so far as I am able. Thank you again.

@colleenyoung Thank you. Am saving this so I can refer to it as needed. Appreciate the help.

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Thank you all!

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Beautiful and healthy looking @alamogal635

All right folks, this is what I look like. Now you can put a face with the posts. I am about 98% gray and the blonde brightened up things and give it more body. Also letting the hair grow out.

@merpreb Thank you for your response. It is quite helpful. I do feel good about things today and the shadow of doubt seems to have receded. Maybe it just was good to getup and do something fun for myself for once. I don't mean seeing doctors, or going to the grocery store, but simply having my hair done. If I can figure out how, I'l post a picture so you all can see what I look like. Really, being social helps and will have a busy day of that tomorrow as well. I trust my doctors and will as the old saying go "let go and let God." Thank you again.

@alamogal635- I'd like to say stop this but I know your history about trust. How about making a list of the pros and cons of what the problems are in your thinking? The CT scan results are wonderful! Congratulations! After my first lobectomy I was told that there wasn't any chemo for me. I felt just the same way! OMG I was really upset about it. I didn't feel complete. Had I known then what I know now I should have been thrilled. I wanted chemo, to be like "everyone else" lol
Trust your doctor! Even if you can't. He He took out your cancer so that you would live and have a great life. Why would he turn around and want you to have more tests when you don't need any? Doctors aren't necessarily going by the every 3 months and then 6 and then year anymore.
Please don't lose sleep over this unless your health changes! Does anyone else have feelings like this?

@merpreb Yesterday had my fist visit with my dear oncologist. he is a compassionate man and knows his field well. I was fully expecting him too say that he would do a CT scan in three months, then six months, etc. That is what I had read int he literature. He has suggested that the cancer found in my right lunch was so small and had not spread to tissue, or lymph nodes that I return for a CT scan kn 6 months, then if all is well a year, then 5 years. I was surprised and happy. Typical of me, after the fact I started to worry that maybe that is not soon enough. I trust my doctor and he's worked with a lot of this type of cancer as well as others. He is very pleased with the surgery and my recovery.I am too. Trust is difficult for me as I"ve mentioned in other posts. Just thought I'd put this out here. I feel good about his report, but still worried that maybe for some reason, I'm not important enough, or he's kind of taking this too lightly. I know rationally he isn't, but these doubts are trying to ruin his positive prognosis and my hopes for a good outcome. Just wanted to share this and see what others have to say. Thank you for letting me state my irrational doubts.