Does any one feel the cancer is winning?

No your going threw bad time.. But you have to be postive.. its hard I ask God everyday what I did wrong but realize its nothing I did cancer not choosing its gets everybody.. At end the day you make the decision if cancer is winning... I was 27 when I got ovarian cancer and I'm 58 now and I have a blood disorder anemia and I have osteoporosis early on. So this is all up to you but I know that you can do it you be positive if you need to talk just call me or text me talk to you later Debbie

Hi @raremiracle2 It sure does feel like cancer is winning some days, doesn’t it? It’s hard to stay upbeat and positive when you’re feeling defeated…it sure tests our strength.
I’m in full agreement with @debrajean674 we are the ones to make that personal decision whether or not it will defeat us mentally or not. I promise not to do my best (others think it’s my worst) Annie impersonation and sing, The Sun Will Come Out Tomorrow, because you’re already having a bad day. 😅
But I will encourage you to do what you can to get through this day. Sometimes it’s 5 minutes at a time. Over my laborious trek through the land of cancer, keeping a sense of humor was what got me through most days, along with a sense of adventure and a spirit of endurance. I refused to let my guard down for more than a few minutes a day and I truly did live minute to minute some days! You can’t let this culprit win!!

One of my chemo nurses pinned this positive affirmation on the whiteboard in my room and it fueled me even harder! It brought out my competitive spirit against the aggressive form of cancer that was fixin’ to ‘take me out’…
It’s a leukemia warriors fight phrase, but works for anything.
The devil whispered in my ear, “You’re not strong enough to weather the storm. I stared the devil down and said, “ I AM the storm!”

Raremiracle…YOU be the storm! You’re going to get through this. (And for heaven’s sake, get some knee pads if you’re going to kneel. ☺️

Where are you in treatment? Are you in any treatments besides phlebotomies? You mentioned in another post about always being dehydrated. Replacing electrolytes/fluids right after that appointment can be crucial. Do you have a saline chaser with that phlebotomy?
Being dehydrated can also be a cause of pain in joints. What is your water intake daily?

I not saying I don't have bads days when I really sick I got down 86 lbs and two young boys there's time cancer was winning..but at the end I won.. I hope your having better day.. debbie

Hello @raremiracle2
Sometimes it seems like docs/chemo=zero, little c=10. So yes, there are those times when it seems so. Your journey sounds much worse than mine, but mine still qualifies as a PITA and prompts me to ask the same question when things just seem to pile on and on and on. I'm 10 years in with ET, and at 86 have watched while one thing after another has gone south....more med, less med, different med...old docs, new docs...scan after scan, X-ray after X-ray while hobbled by a very painful ankle ulcer that required almost a year to mend with a doc visit weekly...finally had to switch meds from HU to Anagrelide before it would heal only to find the brain fog was much worse, really, really worse, and it was also somehow responsible for a serious lung problem that is still lurking not far away in the rearview mirror...so it was back to the HU as a stop gap not knowing what the future holds. Yes, it sometimes does seem like I'm playing ball with the losing team. But every now and again I look outside my now small world and realize there is always (it seems) a lot of people who are doing much heavier lifting than I. Then the fog lifts a little, giving me the energy to swallow those pills and press on. I'll bet those plants you put into the ground will be beautiful this summer! Enjoy!