Depression a d a xiety

Turned into a seizure because my level for decades I've come to the conclusion that thepeople in my life and the things in my life must contribute to my life and not take away from my life. My last anxiety attack turned into a seizure which resulted in 3 days in the hospital it was the physical therapy that threw me off and so now I don't do any Physical Therapy except I do my exercises on my bed in the morning my depression in my anxiety are actually at this point my responsibility to take my medicine and to do the things that help me push the depression and the anxiety away if I want to lay on my bed and read all day because it makes me feel good then that's what I do. I write in my journal I write letters to people forgiving them for the pain they have caused me but I never mail them I catch them on fire in the sink and wash them down the drain I eat good I go to my wonderful Church where I get tons of support and love and I just don't have time to be wrapped in my sadness and Trauma I just can't be around people that are negative in my life and hurt me so I take care of myself I hang out I watched a little TV I ride in my journal I think about how wonderful life can be I watch the birds at my bird feeder and play with my little dog and I'm a happy camper most of the time yes there are things that break my heart that make me sad that make me depressed there are situations that cause anxiety it makes me have to go get in my hot tub and soak it away but there's also the beauty of my life the fact that I've been married to my husband for 53 years and he still loves me and I still love him is a blessing that I cannot explain the fact that I have wonderful friends that love me and would go out of their way to help me is a wonderful thing the fact that I have a church that is supportive and loving and kind and I learn a lot that's all that really matters to me anymore if I have a twinge of sadness or twinge of anxiety I know that I have the ability to make it go away I also know that spending years in counseling getting down to the root of these things was difficult was not fun at all ever made me cry for weeks made me just feel empty and weak but getting to the bottom line of what was causing my depression and anxiety helped me so much that I just think that as long as I pay attention I will be okay I am 73 years old I have been depressed since I was a teenager I have been in situations where I'm on suicide watch and I am taking hands full of Medicine but here I am now 73 years old hanging out having a good time and loving my life please hang in there don't quit you are a special person you are very important and you do not need to be tormented by depression and anxiety anymore if you choose to there is love there is kindness there is support it's all there for you to taking