Covid and ARDS and not getting approved for SSDI

Hi everyone, my name is Josh. I became sick with Covid pneumonia and ARDS back in 2021. I spent nearly 5 months in 3 different hospitals, I was in comma for nearly 7 weeks and was told I died 3 different times. I had to learn to talk, walk, and eat all over again. Everyday has been a struggle since then. I was on oxygen almost daily, I have came along way since I became sick, but the shortness of breath during regular activity and the fatigue felt for days after doing some sort of activity has been difficult to deal with. Some of the medication I was on for my anxiety had some terrible side effects that gave me awful thoughts that I’d never felt before. My SSD has been denied over and over. I will never be able to do the work I’ve done all my life and I feel so useless. It’s been so overwhelming that it’s caused problems in my marriage and family to the point my wife of nearly 25 years filed for divorce. It’s to the point I really don’t know what to do, I’ve tried finding a part time job to help get back into the workforce but can’t even find that, because of my health condition I know no company will hire me full time. Blue collar work is really all I’ve ever known. My heart rate skyrockets during activity and panic attacks are something I’ve also had to learn to deal with. I was considered a essential worker during the pandemic and so was my wife and oldest son, we didn’t get to hide inside our homes like a lot of people did and it’s taking it’s toll on all of us. I feel like I have just been kicked to the side and forgotten about by the people leading our country. I’m almost 46 and worked my entire life. Americans work and pay in to Social Security and then are denied it when we need it and it’s very frustrating. My life will never be the same and it’s cost me my marriage because of how I’ve been reacting to the situation. I’ve lost medical insurance and can’t really afford any insurance so that has led to my Drs just forgetting about me, I know I’m not alone and others are probably dealing with some of the same issues. I wanted to put some of my story out for others to see and maybe get some support in return. I’d been thinking of joining a Covid support group for a while but just couldn’t bring myself to take the first step. I hope this helps someone else and they realize they are not alone in dealing with what happened to people that have been affected by Covid, I know I’ve felt like no one would understand for a while now but I know I’m not alone in this situation.