Anyone else going or gone through this

I'm 50 have stage 4 kidney disease. I swear nobody explains what im going through my body is swelling like 3x size my muscles get so weak I can't make it up a flight of stairs im nauseous all the time my creatine is 2.7 my gfr is 22 and I feel like Im not gonna wake up sometimes im so tired I don't know what to do anymore