Update: Treatment begun

Hey, I'm sorry I haven't updated this in a while. I should have... sometimes it's just a lot going on and you have to sort of deal with it however you can. Thank you for checking on me though.

I actually have good news to share. Well, great news... I will try to keep it brief for now.
Following all of my rounds of chemo and immunotherapy I had surgery on August 18th. They removed my entire right lung. Obviously the surgery was difficult and the recovery has been tough, but they confirmed with lots of pathology that all of the affected areas were successfully dealt with (the primary tumor obviously, and then affected lymph nodes and surrounding tissue). I can't say enough about how great the team at Vanderbilt has been.

Although the surgery was very difficult, believe it or not, I actually feel better now than I did. It's amazing at how slowly this happens and you don't even realize that you're not yourself, until you can look on the other side of it. Even with one lung... I feel better. Still crazy to think that I have one lung, but although it's very rare, a bit more common than I thought. My left lung was doing over 80% of the work in terms of airflow and blood flow they found out after several tests preparing for surgery.

Now, I am doing immunotherapy for a year following surgery and so far I am tolerating that very well overall.

I did have a scare over the holidays unfortunately - we did a follow up scan to check on my heart and general post operation stuff (not for cancer per se). They discovered my supraclavicular lymph node and some around it were enlarged from the last time it was imaged. They were very concerned... so obviously I was. This was the day before Thanksgiving (3 months after surgery). Due to the holidays etc. they were not able to do a biopsy until early January, just two weeks ago. So it was an interesting holiday season, though I tried very hard to put it out of my mind, you guys know how that goes.

When I got the results back on my phone, I barely wanted to look at it. I ignored the notification for several hours, and then decided to open it with my wife with me. It's hard to explain the emotions you go through but... following an extremely difficult surgery, despite all the pain and difficulty I knew that I was cancer free, so I felt like I was alive again I guess is the best way to say it. Then, when you get a scan like that, it sort of takes you back to when it all began and you have those emotions again, and even stronger. A doctor has told me since that recurrences are usually where people really decide if they want to keep treating, or just live the best they can. They are harder emotionally and I totally get that after that scan.

Anyway. The pathology came back completely clean. No malignancy found in the lymph nodes and they are likely just reacting to everything going on.

I feel extremely blessed, and lucky, and fortunate, to be where I am. You always know there is a chance this can come back, but as of this writing... I am cancer free. I am very grateful for the perspective on life that this experience has given me. I feel like a new person in many ways. Once you realize that none of us are getting out of this life alive and none of us know when it's going to happen, there's a certain freedom to that. I can say that I appreciate my life, way more, than I did before. It doesn't mean I am going to go skydiving every day or travel the world... all of that is great... but what it means really is that I am enjoying the small moments and understanding the value of life more.

To be honest, I think part of the reason I haven't posted here, or in some facebook groups I am in, in awhile, is that a part of me feels guilty for having a good story to tell. I know that is silly, because the good stories used to encourage me. So, I hope that this post can encourage someone at some point.

My road has been really difficult... but right now, I am beating the odds and statistics. I'm cancer free right now, and I am typing this with one lung, feeling better than I have in probably 10 years. All things are possible.

I sincerely hope everyone here is finding peace and doing well.