To smead8867 @smead8867, I understand exactly what you are saying and feeling. The Holiday Season has been hard for me for years. I lost my very young husband [28] at Xmastime over 50 years ago and had our very young daughter to make Xmases happy for. My daughter doesn't have anything to do with me anymore, for reasons I don't know, but then also don't see my twin granddaughters, so I have spent all Holidays alone for years now, knowing they are out there. As for what people say, I was only 23 when my husb died and received advice all my life, most of it absudly irrevelevant. I had to learn to deal with it appropriately by giving a fake smile and phony words of "thank you" and then throwing out of my mind everything they said. Unless someone walks a mile in your moccasins..........but most people don't understand that. They mean well, even though they say ridiculous things. You just have to find your own way eventually. It isn't easy and you may change "paths" many times, but I am confident you will find your way. Yours will be different than mine and I respect whatever way you find. There are many of us out here that understand what you are going through. Hopefully you can draw some comfort from that. My heart and prayers go out to you.
❤️P