Hi @smead8867, I'm so glad you've come back. We've been thinking about you since you posted your first message here https://connect.mayoclinic.org/discussion/at-the-end-time-to-jump/. I merged both your discussions into one so you can see the posts from me, @malo @aesling @gracer @marciak9 and @pkh3381.

You're hanging on and you don't want to leave. That's good. You've found a way to not listen to your brain. Yes, you have people to talk to here. We are someone other than your therapist. As pkh says, we're not professionals, but we can chat through text on the screen. As you can see there can be a lag time between messages. So never forget if you need to talk to someone right away, you can always call or text the 988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline.
– Call or text 988
– Chat with a counsellor at https://988lifeline.org/chat/
Chat is available 24/7 across the U.S. You don't need your phone. You can chat on your computer.

If you want to chat with virtual friends here, please continue to post. You may wish to join this discussion here:
- Lonely and Just want to talk with virtual friends here https://connect.mayoclinic.org/discussion/very-lonely/

Today is a new day. It's a bit chilly where I am. The leaves are all down from the trees so now I can see the blue jay more clearly from my window looking into the tree. It's time for coffee and then a brisk walk. Regardless of weather I take a short or long walk every morning to get the morning light. It helps regulate my mood.

Smead, how are you doing this morning? What do you see out your window?