@brokendoll, I am extending my hand to Welcome you to Mayo Connect. I think that you need a hug right now and so I sent you a hug reaction to your message. As a transplant recipient, I assure you that you are already hero because you took the first step toward living donation.

Not being able to donate is a reality and it helps for people to know this side of the story.. It helps to be supported by people who have “been there”. And it helps to support other people who will be there. By your sharing on Connect, you will help many. I want to thank you for introducing this topic. I know that you are not alone in feeling like you do. I want to thank you for introducing this topic.
While we wait to hear from others who share similar stories, I have located some experiences and ideas that were shared by members in 2019. You will see that you are not alone in feeling like you do.
Here is the link to comments for you to read from Jan. 15, 2019 thru Jan 27, 2029 on pages 28 and 29 :
-Kidney Transplant - The Journey from the Donor's Side
https://connect.mayoclinic.org/discussion/kidney-transplant-from-the-donor-side/?pg=28
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Brokendoll, I hope that this does not interfere with your friendship. Will you follow-up to learn more about your blood result?