Thank you for your response. I am sure that it may be possible for some to do. I have had BiPolar for more than 30 years. Initially I refused to accept the diagnosis or meds for many years. I believe now that I could have avoided a lot of episodes had I been willing to admit my issues and adhere to treatment. My Bipolar issues are compounded by a large amount of trauma. I have a good team and I stick with the meds because my daughter requested I do so. However, it is still not easy and I am still trying to figure out how to manage my anger and rage. I can go from 0 to 1000 in a microsecond.