I can totally relate and agree. I am almost 63, but have am young at heart. Have a life long history of illnesses which have consumed my entire physical/mental being, severe abuse, distrust, deception, no friends. I'm alone now and trying to manage the household, bills, work, etc, So overwhelming! I have a son in Pittsburg and 1 sister left in AZ. They are there for me but don't fully understand. Major depression, anxiety, OCD and phobias, Feel I'm silently going out of mind. I was in a very dark place a month ago...one that I've never known before. It was very frightening. Live or Die? So I prayed to God and my mother asking them to embrace me with their strength to pull myself out of whatever that was. Still struggling but in this moment in a better place.
I recite the serenity prayer ALL THE TIME and BREATHE.
I sympathize with you. Sending virtual hugs. God Bless.
Maria