Chris20 - This forum will save you in so many ways. I have tried to remain upbeat and positive, but am currently in a slump, maybe a bit of depression, so I think I can relate to your situation as well. Like you, we do have relatives, but zero help. They would like a little money though...or something of value. I finally realized that these "relatives" were better kept at a distance when for years they had no interest in visiting, only when they got wind of husband's "changes" did they get hot for some one on one time. Guess I'm saying that you might just count that as a blessing that they don't want to come around. At least they're up front about it. I'm currently searching for someone I can TRUST to come in and take care of my husband for several hours. This needs to NOT be a relative, they've already shown their true selves. I really can't ask the church, we haven't been in years. He got uncomfortable going anywhere. We're home at least 6 out of 7 days most weeks with a mandatory run to take trash to the dumpsters, check the P.O. Box and take care of anything else that needs such as banking and or the grocery store or farmer's market. I was reminded recently to write my list of what I'm grateful for in my life and that actually does help. Write that list and review it often. I talk to God a lot throughout each and every day, that too helps. Don't forget He is always there, doesn't matter the hour or the circumstance. Then you've got this forum, there's some good people here and they know what you're up against. Most of them have already walked in those same shoes you're now in. They get it. I get it. Whine, vent, ask for suggestions....someone will chime in. You're not doing anything wrong, it's ok to feel the way you do, resentment and anger, disappointment that this is happening....tell me about it. He slept until 10:00 a.m. this morning and I was ecstatic. There's one I never imagined before all of this started. Write out what you're going through, it helps.