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Well, I needed a second shot of anesthetic, and when it came time for them to take the bone sample, I stayed still as promised but absolutely lost it an started sobbing uncontrollably. Do you remember what it felt like when you first found out you had cancer? I do, and this feels the same as it did before I found out which kind I have. It's like I'm going through that all over again (and yes, I realize that in this crowd I'm one of the 'lucky' ones, at least for now). Well, one breath at a time, one step at a time... I only hope I get back to feeling like my usual self quickly.

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Emotions run very high when we get a diagnosis involving the word Cancer and I’m so sorry you had a meltdown yesterday. I’d like to think of that as a pressure relief valve opening. Sometimes purging those tears is cathartic and helps to clear the head. You’ve been carrying the weight of this anxiety for a while and it builds up…letting it go is important.

If it’s any help at all, Follicular lymphoma tends to grow slowly. Many people with this type of cancer live for a long time with a high quality of life. Symptoms are often mild or nonexistent when it’s diagnosed. So it’s important to not let thoughts of ‘what if’ defeat you before you even begin this journey.
I do indeed remember my diagnosis and what helped me get through the worst days is just what you mentioned…one breath, one moment, 1 minute at a time. Our thoughts can have tremendous power over our bodies…use them for good!

Waiting for results of the biopsy is stressful time. It can take a week or more for all the results to be ready for review. So I hope that you’ll find some positive activities to keep yourself uplifted and distracted.

Here’s a challenge: When a negative thought pops into your mind, quickly think of 3 positive things to replace it! Train yourself to flip the script! It works!

You did great yesterday. Now go have fun with your little boy. ☺️