Thanks, @ladyjane, for your input. I haven't made a final decision to do the scs, just going to discuss it with a doctor who does the procedure. If I do, I'll at least have the temporary, external stimulator to assess the benefit or effects before I commit to having one implanted.

I have a few resources that have helped me. I have a loving, supportive wife, who could have understandably left me at the hardest times, but stuck with me. I have a psychiatric service dog, who's always with me. I have several doctors who care about my well being. I volunteer for Hospice, by visiting patients once a week. I have a pastor who's understanding because he has frequent depressive episodes, usually having to do with his fight with cancer. And I enjoy the group of people with whom I worship on Sunday evenings, where I lead the singing and play the piano. So, I do what I can to stay safe and more or less stable.

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