Jeez, thought it was just me!! I have every symptom, and some physical from really bad falls. Broken bones. But since that happened and even before if honest, I just hurt absolutely everywhere. Always confused, and yet can write this! Can't even remember 3 words fgs. My brain is so fogged, I can't get to a doctor really or ER really due to injuries. I'm always stone cold whether I have eaten or not, never got any energy, motivation I'm always super emotional, could be absolutely anything, an advert on TV a movie scene. It's crazy and all of that whioe I just feel so bad. Shouldn't of googled why I don't want to drink or eat, as that hasn't helped. I'm not an anxious person, had an addiction for 18 years, still on synthetic, been clean since birth of my son. 19 years. So I take buprenorphine 0.4mcg, but enough to constipate me. I have diverticular disease, amd colitis, have a constant pulse pain in my groin, my left leg feels chilled all the time. Again I'm never warm. Next to no veins that are worth a p***. Heart palpations as well. Currently taking CBD Helps until it wears off. Never ever feel like I've slept, have the most horrendous dreams, I'm terrified to close my eyes. Wake up in tears, hysterical. Believing what the dream was.. not going there. I'm from the UK, and had ambulances out just sent home with nothing. No care package. So is it worth it, living that is, as I'm truly struggling to find a reason. I can't remember my life. But again I can write this. Yes have skull fractures that go back to 2014 as well, then attacked last boxing day, unprovoked. Tried to end my life last October when rode on my ebike head on into a car. Still paying the price for that. But honestly feel like my body is shutting down. Just not gonna wake up, when I do eventually sleep. Not even afraid, actu5the opposite, dining things hilarious one minute and the next I'm in bits.. And in so much pain internally, externally. Even my mind.. crazy how I've written this in one go...