Hi @wieczorkemaria, as a former smoker, I can totally relate to what you say. Stress is the number one trigger for a smoker to reach for a smoke. It almost like a reflex. Sadly, as soon as the smoke is over, the little lying cigarettes tell you you need another and so the cycle continues. There is no good time to quit...stress will always be part of life, and for me the thought of life without cigarettes was impossible to think of. Until I was able to conquer them and not let them rule me and my thoughts. Once I realized how nicotine worked, and how insidious they are, I was able to use that knowledge to overcome them. I did not want to live my life letting some little object control me. When I think of all the times I stood outside in the rain, hovering under an eve to smoke, or standing out in the hot sun to smoke, or being so anxious to get out the car, movie, wedding reception, church, TJ Maxx, work, school, basically you get it, right? When I think of all that I gave up for them, I am so grateful for the knowledge that I gained that helped me overcome them and get my life back! I hope the same for you as you work through your burdens and the cards you were dealt. Our thoughts are so powerful, and being able to turn them into positive thoughts, while at first may not work, but slowly over time, we can control them and even though it may not change our circumstances, it can change our attitude. And that's what can make all the difference. Best wishes to you...