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Pain and Loss of Self Worth

Chronic Pain | Last Active: Dec 18, 2023 | Replies (142)

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@inpain247

Hi Everyone, 2nd time posting. To be honest, I have been quickly glancing at my Mayo Clinic email and hitting Delete. BUT... I saw this today and i couldn't believe it. This is exactly what I'm going through right now. For about a week or so I've been so down, spent the last 2 days having crying spells. I look at my dog and I feel so sad because I can't walk him, I used to. I can't drive, I used to. I can't do sooooo many things that I used to. It's coming up on 7 years of being handicapped. I tried adult coloring books. I watched a lot of TV. I know these feelings will go away in time, but I'm so unhappy. If anyone has any ideas about not feeling like a burden or something that can make me have some self worth I am so open to it!! God bless everyone that feels this way!! Much love and prayers to everyone.

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inpain247 thank you for sharing, as I think so many of us suffer in silence and unless someone has gone or is going through this they do not understand. I have had chronic pain for 30 years and because I have all my limbs, no bandages or a cast people assume at times there is nothing wrong or it must be in my head. After 30 years a radiologist found my issue although no pain specialist had seen a buildup of calcium on both my fibula's right where the main nerves run down my leg. This nerve was rubbing on what my surgeon said was like a coral reef = so every second of the day the pain was intense and never went away. It was like a very bad toothache 24/7. I never gave up no matter what people said or the doctors who never believed me or pushed me to another doctor as I was a lost cause. I felt like a burden, a loser, and questioned myself but in the end, I never gave up and was vindicated when they found the issue. The pain is now much better but the nerve in my right leg is permanently damaged having rubbed on this build=up for so long but I can do so much more. I have learned to get a second or third doctor's opinion as doctors are just humans and have different perspectives.

If I had this issue 100 years ago, I would have jumped off a cliff because the never-ending pain was not livable. Medicine is improving day by day so never give up. I never thought I would find a solution after 30 years of searching but I did.