Your description fits me to a T. Even though I know, intellectually that feeling worthless is not useful. I still think that way and feel that way sometimes. It’s OK to feel bad. Many people that are not experiencing this level of suffering, Have absolutely no idea about what they’re talking when they give suggestions. Usually they try to compare my pain to theirs, which is-unbelievably non-helpful. I take 70 mg a day of morphine and at night I vape a small amount of cannabis medically prescribed. I live in Canada, so I don’t actually need a prescription, but if I have to go to the hospital, they won’t let me use it unless I have a prescription. Even then it’s problematic sometimes. The only thing that saves me is that I have an active mind and I am interested in science and other topics. So I spend most of my time doing research on my illness, in quantum mechanics, other science, etc. I have always disliked television and now I find I’m watching hours of mind numbing shows because I am simply too tired to do anything else . These are the times when I feel particularly bad mentally. I so long to be productive again although it’s a complete impossibility that I just have to accept. My fine motor control is so bad I have to use voice to text now, so doing crafts is almost impossible and honestly nobody really wants to hear about your illness . This makes conversation with others difficult because my life is so constricted. Most people aren’t interested in science and they’re certainly not interested in my illness other than in a casual way. I have thought about teaching others but that requires that they have to come to my home and then I would have to make sure my house is tidy which is sometimes impossible and I also get very tired just talking for any length of time. I wish there was an easy solution to this problem, the reality is there is not. If anyone has any kind of practical solution to this problem, I would love to hear it. Perhaps now with zoom and the Internet, I might be able to do some thing online but I have no idea what or how to organize that if anybody has any ideas, let me know. Sending love and hugs to everyone out there who is in this situation. I pray that all suffering well end and new medicines and strategies will be developed to help people like us. 🥰