Missing my Mommy

@ gloriaannjames - Aww honey, I'm sorry that you are in such pain. How old are you? When did she pass away?

Merry

Oh first message saw tonight, and went straight to my heart. Am so sorry. I am now a "senior citizen" who still misses her Mum very very much... you are not alone in your sorrow but yes, special bond we each had with our own/hugs 💗

I'm 66 and in a nursing home. Mommy died on Dec. 7, 2021; a date that will live in infamy for me. She was my best friend, my mentor, my guiding light. I miss her all the time. I just got news on Monday that my inflammatory breast cancer is back, and I just want to hear her voice.

@gloriaannjames I understand.
I miss my mom too. I was 66 years old when my mom died. I felt like an orphan when she passed. My dad had died the year before so I didn’t have any parents for the first time in my life. I was really unsettled for sure.
That was 8 years ago. I still miss speaking with her every evening. We really were not very close, but she was my mom.

My heart goes out to everyone who experiences this pain that never goes away. I am 53, lost my amazing Mama when I was 24, and them my Dad 2 years later (he was lost without Mom). It is something I have learned to live with but it is also a pain that will hit again out of nowhere, in the middle of an ordinary day and feel so heavy. But I always remind myself how lucky I was to have loved - and be loved by - someone THAT much < 3

@michaelhughes Michael, you lost your parents, especially your mom when you were still young. That has to be very hard.
I worry about my grandchildren. They lost their mom when they were 10, 13, and 16. My daughter died suddenly five years ago. They seem to be doing well, but I think inside they are in pain.

It was very hard yes, I definitely wasn't ready to be on my own and I'll always feel that I missed out on years of valuable advice and wisdom. My heart goes out to you and to your grandchildren - I cannot imagine.

So very sorry for your loss. Take good care.

I was 65 when Mommy died. I am in a nursing home in another state, so I was forced to watch her funeral on my laptop. I didn't get to say goodbye. Daddy has been gone since 2001. We two were not close; in fact, my grad thesis was about what happened to my little girl because her male role model was emotionally unavailable. I have lost so many in my 66 years; NONE of those losses prepared me for the grief I'm living without Mommy. I miss her all the time.

Regrets. Guilt. I left my parents and brother in another country when I was 18 to come to Canada. I married, and had 2 children - my Mum's only granddaughters although two grandsons of my brother and wife.
First time Mum visited me here she gave up smoking for 2 years and saved the money in a jar under the sink! She and my Dad visited me and children here several times and we were able to visit her/my Dad when alive several times. But it was not "the same."
Not having her around as my Mum and grandmother to my girls who are now adults.
She eventually had to move into a "Home" and gradually deteriorated and my handicapped nephew got some photos of her to me.. and they are heartbreaking how she deteriorated mentally and in the photos physically... just looking at them breaks my heart.
She was there to take care of me and I was not there to take care of her (or my Dad)... she fell in the Home, she was attacked by another resident and I could go on...
People are kind and say to me I was young and my Mum would have wanted me to have a new life in a new country but they do not know the absolute pain of not being there to care for my Mum. That responsibility fell on my brother and his wife. Mum's heart kept beating unitl she was 97 but the last ten years of her life were horrible and my brother said the last 3 were "hell."
She did not deserve to end her life that way, as have millions of other Seniors, and I have my own thoughts on that life ending....personal.
No matter what is said to console me, "I" will never ever forgive myself for leaving my family especially my Mum, and even denying my children to have the lovely relatives I left behind.
Sorry for complaining and sorry to hear of your losses... I just wish for the impossible! I was not even able to attend her funeral....am so sad to read of your pain - there is no "happy ending" is there? 💜🌷🦋