I'm so sorry. I hope that you find help to overcome this. I feel the same but have very severe narcolepsy in addition to depression. Neither helped much with meds.I spend every day in bed, rarely get up for anything. I have no energy to even speak to anyone let alone see or spend time with anyone. 100% isolated and alone 98% of the time. I have a boyfriend of 19 years, we rarely speak Idk why he is still around. When I see him I'm too tired to do anything including talk, haven't had sex in a few years either. . My daughter talked non stop, had a lot of caos, was an alcoholic. She begged me to talk to her just for a minute, she was in the hospital, I still couldn't. Now she's gone, died from alcoholism I feel like the worst mother, she was so alone and needed me so badly I couldn't be there for her. I have a son who is struggling too and rarely able to speak to him. My mom is gone and have nobody else. I lay in bed wasting space, have for 10 years. Contribute nothing to this world. I go to a dr appt once a month, thats it. Friendships all faded away. I don't shower or take care of myself, just too tired. I wanted to be a respiratory therapist but couldn't get through classes, my narcolepsy prevented me from accomplishing much of anything in life. I held hope something would work, help so I could go back to living, I want to live life so much. at 58 its not likely to ever happen. This is a terible way to live. I really hope you can find the help that can get you feeling better. .