Hello everyone. I am only just now learning the true sources of my anxiety and depression. I have had both since I was a young child. I wanted to run away from home, and had a plan on how to do it. I wanted to kill myself, and I had a plan for that too. I only recently learned that those circumstances have a distinct link to child abuse .I was abused early on but I have blocked out much of what happened. What I remember is enough. I have been on antidepressants for years. I do believe there is a hereditary link to chemical imbalances and they do seem to run in my family. I finally started on a low dose anti anxiety med this year, and it really helps. Memorizing Scripture of s positive nature helps too, as well as associating with people who build me up instead of tearing me down. Gratitude in all things helps. Talking to God throughout the day helps. Playing the piano, singing, and cleaning my house helps. Eating low carb helps. Reading inspirational literature helps. Sunshine and fresh air helps. Nature helps. Helping other people helps.