Thank you all for your responses! I really do appreciate it.
I have an appointment on Wednesday and had to wear a device for my heart (I was super lucky that I got the device put on while my husband was in the hospital).
I do find it difficult to share my feelings about anything, because I feel so selfish and ashamed for having some of my feelings…
Right now I am just exhausted and overwhelmed, like I know so many here are feeling.
I am trying to take care of myself - but it is a bit harder with my husband being home…don’t get me wrong, I am so happy that Brian is home…
But it is a lot… shots to give for the next 26 days, medication rotation, cooking, helping him shower, taking him for walks (which I need help doing- physically) I try to get some stuff done while he is sleeping…. But not as much as I want.
I started journaling today… I thought it would be a healthy way to get out my emotions and not have to put my stuff on someone else…. I think that is what is so hard for me, that I feel like I am being burden to others.
I know life is not easy for anyone….and I feel bad if I had to it… even now I am feeling horrible about adding my comment now.
To all of you - sending hugs (I’m a hug type of person) and u all will be in my prayers….
Right now trying to go with the motto: Faith< r