Something is wrong in the WORLD

Hi @lovelyday. I'm sorry you're dealing with so much right now.
I'm not sure if meditation 🧘‍♀️ may be helpful for you to try and relax and release any pent up anxiety, worries and nervousness you may have.
Personally, I enjoy a little recreational mj. It helps me relax and any cancer symptoms or any other problems I have melt away. Not sure if you're in a legal state, but if you are you can tell the bud tender exactly what you're looking for.
Of course there's exercise, yoga, etc.
Wishing you love, light and Peace 🌞🙏🕊

Bless your heart! I have a close family member with OCD and remember...you are not OCD! Don't let that define who you are, okay? When those intrusive thoughts come say, "It's not me, it's OCD". Things are magnified in your thinking with OCD. I hope you are seeing someone professionally for counseling for this and on the right medication to help you cope. If not, please get some help, okay? Cognitive Therapy works wonders for germ phobia & other OCD symptoms. OCD creates a lot of anxiety & possibly you are having panic attacks. Yes, menopause can ramp everything up with those crazy hormones. Menopause for many is like "PMS on steroids!". You may need hormone replacement therapy to help calm down your anxiety as well and help you sleep better. Find an OB/GYN doctor who can help you with the best fit for you. If you want to go the natural route such as bioidentical hormone therapy that is compounded at a pharmacy, you may have to ask around and find the right OB/GYN doctor who can write you a prescription for that. You are not crazy! You are struggling and you need some help. It is out there, but, you are going to have to do your research. I am so sorry you are battling this. You are valuable! Praying for you. Be hopeful.

I wish I could take the hormone therapies out there but I can't after breast cancer in 2016 I was hormonal positive so no replacement for me ..

And I'm in therapy now but it's a new therapist so we'll see and buds don't mix well with my autoimmune diseases at times I thought I could take them but it's been hard I have gummies here I'm in a legal state I wish I could find the right meds

I've been on low dose of Prednisone and Tramadol and even they're not helping me with my autoimmune diseases it's been really tough I've been on Norco at times horrible and I've tried different ones these drugs they ALL have so many side effects too that really make it difficult especially ones for anxiety and depression they're so difficult when it comes to finding the right ones I'm not sure if there is a right one for me I'm so sensitive that's for SURE..

I just really wish I could sleep well and wake up feeling good mornings are extremely hard for me getting up and if I didn't sleep well I feel it it's like I NEVER slept like I'm waking up from nothing and the pain upon waking up is horrible night and waking up it's very hard and mentally it's truly trying I'm in tears often

And I'm feeling sad and anxious I have to schedule my mammogram it's time and I'm always scared of this my hips are bone on bone and I'm scared to get the surgery but I'm in a lot of pain and it's TIME to much for me at times and I don't know where to start then on my bladder is showing an obstruction of some sort an UPJ Obstruction what is this so I have to see a Urologist now and getting in to see this doctor is taking time ugh

I'm so sorry I'm just tired of it being sick and I'm an outgoing free spirit REALLY I am if you met me you would know I have a big aura so I've been told I'm fun when I can be 😉 thank you for your thoughts and feedback it really helps to feel like you're NOT alone 🌈

Prednisone can cause sleep issues, so take it early in the day. I'm sorry you have been through so much. Do ask about bioidentical hormone replacement therapy even if you have had breast cancer and see what the OB/GYN says. It is the safer route to go. You are a valuable loved human being. God bless you!

Read Stoicism:

Donald Robertson
Massimo Pigliucci
Allan Clarke
David Gerken
Ryan Holiday

Namaste 🙏🏻

@lovelyday You don't have just a hill to climb, so feel justified in venting. You can see how much people care. I hope the relationship with your new therapist becomes a great one for you...mine really changed the way I processed issues. Try to separate the thing you can try to control and those that you have no control over. At 82, almost 83, I see the vast difference in the way the world was back in 1940s and 50s...and now. Try to remember not to put yourself in situations that are going to increase your stress. The stress aggravates autoimmune diseases; brush your teeth with just water and your toothbrush. Can you get just fresh vegetables to eat? Do you have to do the storage unit now? right this minute. Please...give yourself some space, quiet time, with just music maybe. Be kinder to yourself, and maybe you should wear sneakers instead of sandals, and you'll feel more protected.
Everyone here is hugging you in their own way...you have friends and....I can tell you have a good sense of humor! I'm saddened by the way the world is today, but the only thing I can do is what I think is right or kind. You nailed it when you said the world is a mess...but take care of yourself ~! Breathe....💞

I wish I could give you a big hug! Turn those thoughts over to prayer, listen to your favorite music, don’t watch the news, take walks as often as you can and listen to nature and see the beauty of it. God is there for you so ask Him for healing. You are in my prayers.

I just read your note and I feel like you are completely overwhelmed. How about we try to talk about each problem 1 at a time.
1. Night sweats. When I was going through the menopause, I could not take any estrogen (because of breast cancer history), so the doctor gave me a little depression medication to take only when having hot flashes. Worked like a miracle.
2. Storage problem. Hire a student to do the work for you while you supervise with a mask, gloves, etc.Try to do only small projects at a time.
3. Food allergies. Try one food at a time. See which ones are causing you problems and eliminate those.
4. Tooth Brushing. I have a son with OCD he brushes after every meal and rinses with Listerine.
5. Always wear socks when outside, remove them before entering the house and throw in the washing machine, wash your hands.
6. Stay out of the garden department in any store.
I am not being "Smart or Rude" I believe in your problems, and I think there are answers. The world has always been imperfect, and not likely to improve a great deal. But we can find ways to deal with it. It helps to remember "Today is all we have, Yesterday is gone forever, and tomorrow is but a dream". If we expect someone else to solve our problems it will probably never happen either. I have been engages with this world for a very long time 92 years, and I am grateful for everyone of them. Some where pretty difficult to deal with, but you just push through and it is amazing what is on the other side. I have the greatest faith in your ability to take on these problems and SOLVE THEM. Good look, and may God Smile On you.
Gina 5009

And God bless you Gina 5009. Your words are more than comforting and inspiring. They have a way of connecting one with the reality that things aren't as hopeless and unchangeable as they appear. And there are good things to look forward to. Also most importantly to continue to remember what we do have and be thankful and grateful.

Everyday (I try) I write down 10 things to be thankful or grateful for.
You would be amazed how it helps the “down days”. Even looking at a full blooming tree can fill your senses with appreciation! Bless you all!