I hear you. Fortunately years ago my hubby took long term insurance. However how long will this go on, am I going to have to put him in a home. That’s my last resort. He would never want this. He will be 80 in August but he is active. It’s his memory that is terrible. Diagnosed 2 years ago with MCI. I just retired in June from teaching so I’m home and more available for him. I have days or moments when I’m screaming inside how much more can I take. Then I think if those worse off. People who have this at very early ages. I’ve been blessed we traveled and married 30 years. We had a good run. I’ve gone back to church and this helps me alot. I’ve joined this group. I grieved for him. Who he has become is not who I married. I just wish that knot in my stomach would subside. I’d like to live and enjoy life. We do go out but it’s always a worry. I mostly try to think about people who have it worse to get me through this. Gif bless us all. I’m here if you need to vent.