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Hope can lift the spirit! Without hope it's hard to hold on. You're issues are more complex than mine, but I so understand despair. I would lay in my sleepless bed at night, itching, stinging and in pain and plan my suicide. This would distract me for hours. Every scenario was considered. I didn't want to fail, have it hurt, make a mess for my husband to clean up and so on. That would get me though to morning when my day of searching for answers would begin again. Lack of sleep is a form of torture. Unless someone has lived with chronic pain they can't understand the despair and fatigue it causes. I hung in there basically because I couldn't do this to my husband. True, like yours, he could never understand the 24/7 aspect of misery it didn't help that I looked better than I felt. During the day I could distract myself, but at night without distractions all you feel is your body.
Speaking from experience- keep up hope and keep searching for answers.
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I have never told anybody, but I’ve done the same…thought about suicide…LOTS, but I couldn’t do it for the same reason, plus my kids. The oldest moved out as soon as he could…he couldn’t stand watching the whole situation between me & his father. He had just turned 20…the thing is, he stopped talkin to me completely. That was heart breaking, I had no idea he’d even got an apartment. I miss him terribly. My18 yr old still lives w/ us…he’s the reason I’m still here.
He is so kind & gentle & understanding. He says next time I go to the Dr., he’s gonna speak for me…I’m not good at talking about my pains & ailments. I seem to forget all the things wrongs/ me when I’m Face to face. Being anonymous is different. I guess my mind comes & goes..there’s some texts here that I have NO recollection at all of writing. That’s distressing & scary! I haven’t cried so much in my life as in the past month or so…I told my son goodbye & I loved him…THIS SUCKS…I really thought I WAS dying a couple weeks or so ago. I thought my body wasgivinout, finally, my heart was pounding completely crazily, my gums were throbbing…that’s a new one! It was kinda scary, but I was ok w/ it..even ‘tho I wasn’t ready to leave my kids. Seems like I missed the last 5 to 7 years of their lives! That REALLY is the hardest. 😢