Sorry for your sad state of events. However, that being said consider that you just got bad news and it takes time to process it. Right now you need to take time to spoil yourself. Go shopping and buy something nice, buy a parakeet or kitten, eat out at a fancy restaurant, try to life your spirits and then when things settle down you might want to talk to a professional about "Next Steps". The important thing is to get through the next week or two with the least amount of sadness...time does help to heal...good luck !

Hi @tee247, I can imagine you're scared. But you are not alone. I moved you message about being diagnosed with high risk HPV to this existing discussion:
- HPV Questions: https://connect.mayoclinic.org/discussion/hpv-questions/

I did this so you can read through previous posts and connect easily with members like @loribmt @brittg2019 @betsyp @flowerpetals123 @paulette66 @quirkygirl35 and others.

I agree with @casey1329 that this is all new. It's important to gather your thoughts and your questions for when you consult with your doctor next. What are next steps for you? Will you have more testing?

@tee247 Getting news like this is very frightening and shocking. As @colleenyoung suggested it will take you some time to settle down into this new reality for yourself. Please give yourself the gift of time for yourself. Here's the thing. Stress and anxiety make people want to get up and do something like avoid or run away. It's actually better not to make any big decisions when you're under this much stress. How do I know this? Lots and lots of life experiences (I'm 71-years-old, been through many heartaches in the past, diagnosed with cancer in 2019, and have lots of personal experience with anxiety and depression). This is a time to take care of you. It's likely not a good time to be taking care of another living being such as a new pet. Maybe you already have companion animals that are a great source of solace for you?

What does your doctor say about what to do? Is there a plan in place for your next steps? I know for me that having a medical team that consults with me and follows through with making plans for treatment is really important in reducing my stress.

How are you feeling today?

I came across your post from last year and wanted to see how you are doing.
What are your next steps? Do you have a follow up appointment with a GP or Gyn Doctor? I think you need to seek more information and next steps to formulate a plan. I typically feel better about my ongoing health issues including cancer when I have a plan. Also, journaling your feelings can be a helpful outlet especially when on your own. I hope you are well.