Hi! So glad to hear from you. Yes, I can relate to the fear experience. Just about everyone who participates here can relate to that feeling too. You sound like you're doing well in many ways tho not recovering as fast as you'd like. I'm glad for the success of the surgery itself and pray you get a special dose of patience to carry you through the rest of the recovery process. I have not had brain surgery to relate to your experience personally but have had other medical experiences that required an extended recovery. So I do understand the range of impact of loss of full function, easy fatigue etc. I believe this forum will be a wonderful bridge for you. Persevere. My best wishes and prayers for you