I understand as when I was diagnosed I had a 6 year wait before I needed chemo. Doc said a slow growing cancer but that did not help much with the worry and the wonder of what now. I understand what you are going through and pray that you will find things to keep you busy and get on with your life. You know it's there so now up to you to beat it. I will pray you will find peace in your mind and heart and just believe in being positive. A positive outlook is a good medicine for your soul.