Axonal peripheral neuropathy: Finally, a diagnosis!
Hello!
I know I've been here before, but probably not for many months For the past few years, I have seen specialist after specialist hoping to finally receive a diagnosis. Only last Monday I was told by the most recent of several neurologists that I have axonal (loss) peripheral neuropathy. Now that I have a name to attach to my problem, I would love to talk with others who have received similar diagnoses. I have such basic questions: What to do now? What should I expect? Where do I go from here?
Ray (@ray666)
Denver
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I know. I know. But it's who I am and if I can't be me then... well that's not acceptable. If I get to a point where it's dangerous to others I'll quit. Right now I can still control the motorcycle just fine.
Thanks. It's certainly been epically difficult. I'm not known for asking for help or talking about my problems with anyone much less publicly, but I'm at the end of my rope. My friends think I'm Superman. Some of them actually call me that. But there's a limit to what Superman can take.
Even Superman had his weakness (kryptonite). There’s nothing wrong showing others you’re human. Your true friends will support you no matter what the circumstances are. Trying to uphold your Superman status will end up hurting you worse. As well, members here understand what you’re going through as well……David
I have Axonal Polyneuropathy and Anti MAG Antibodies. The neurologist is trying to treat the Anti MAG Antibodies but, it seems there's no treatment for Axonal Polyneuropathy. I don't know if they are connected or related. I guess it's a blessing that I won't have the pain associated with the more common neuropathy.
If you can expound on your experience with this, I would appreciate it.
I have extreme pain and numbness and tingling in my extremities - mostly in my legs. Sections of my legs are foreign to me. I get no feedback from them and I have no idea where they are in space. Like as I lay here typing this I couldn't tell you if my feet are spread or not because I don't remember what position I put them in last. The pain ranges from crushing to burning sensation at an indescribable level. And this is coming from a guy who crashed a motorcycle breaking his femur into multiple pieces and twisting it onto the wrong side of his body. Grabbed the leg and put it back on the correct side. Spun around on the hill so feet were higher than heart. And dug into race leathers and found the cell phone to call for help. I know pain well. But I never knew this level of pain existed. It is relentless. It's is 24 hours a day. I can walk but no one knows how. I can ride my Superbike and they definitely can't explain that nor can I. I was told to keep riding as long as I can - with the additional statement of "I wouldn't normally tell someone to ride a motorcycle." I've attached an image of me from 1997 at the WERA Grand National Finals to explain why that was recommended.
Oh and when I say the Doctors told me to ride - they're supporting that so much they gave me a handicap tag for a Superbike... as ironic as that is... so that I can park it within my walking distance ability.
When I close my eyes, I lose all sense of balance. I need 3 point contact when washing my face at the sink or sudsing my hair in the shower. I can't look up at the stars without leaning against a stabile fence, post or companion. I don't know if I've lost a sock or shoe until I visually see it's not on my foot. I don't believe I can ever work in my darkroom again. Recently, while roaming the internet for information on Anti MAG Antibodies, I found there's a name for this lack of sensation. Sensory Ataxia. It is one of the symptoms of this disease. My neurologists never put or gave me the name for what I am experiencing. The first neurologist explained that if the book of neurology were a foot thick, what is currently known is about maybe 1/2" thick. I can't get a straight answer from them about how this disease will progress, so I can prepare for end of life issues. I guess they're trying to give me hope but, I still want to know.
I've read about the excruciating pain that comes with neuropathy but, I was told this is not part of my disease; one thing in my favor that I can be grateful for. However, I came across an article about neuropathy pain, specifically diabetic neuropathy. It may help other types of neuropathy but, it needs more study. Check this out:
https://medicalxpress.com/news/2023-02-spinal-cord-diabetic-neuropathy.html
I love that your doctor's are allowing you to keep riding your beautiful bike. The disability license plate is a hoot. Stay safe and good luck.
Wow! I guess I shouldn't be amazed but I am. I am just like that- everything is visual because I can't tell otherwise and I'll fall down. I use my elbow on the wall of the shower and it's like a magic trick! Take my elbow off the wall, fall down. Keep my elbow touching the wall, everything is fine.
They're not telling you the endgame because they don't know. Nerves rupture and communication is lost and you lose control of the part they talked to you about. That could be a leg, or both. That could be organs. That could be your diaphragm and you can't breathe (that's common)... they don't have a way to know how or when.
Don't read this like doomsday prophecies... it could be a LONG time or a short time - just like anybody else... life is fragile and fleeting.
@artistwagoodi - There is a discussion on Ataxia that might be helpful for connecting with other members.
--- Ataxia: https://connect.mayoclinic.org/discussion/ataxia-1/
Finding this place is like finding gold. I've been feeling like I was all alone. I am obviously not alone.