My name is Angel Geraghty, in one week I turn 35. I have been vivid dreaming since I was very young. I have also had a very traumatic childhood, teenage life and adulthood. I have reoccurring dreams to the point I can indicate in my dream that I have been there in that dream, know the outcome and have even managed to changed some of the outcome. Still today I can tell you some of the vivid dreams I had that are months even years old because they are that vivid that the dream itself has stuck with me and became a memory. I have tried teas, I have tried no electronics near the bed, a salt lamp beside my bed, no eating hours before bed, medications you name it it doesn’t work. I have had my spouse wake me up many times not from lack of breathing but from hyperventilating and crying in my sleep. There are so many vivid dreams I can remember still today it’s almost like when I go to bed I’m living a second life. Either running from someone or something even things I’m not scared of in my awake world. Fear of water, fear of snakes, I can’t cross bridges in my dreams with out crawling, faces coming out of walls, possessed inflatable dolls and possessed killer dolls, killer mansions with anger spirits haunting them, beautiful old abandoned houses beside the water that are just waiting for that one strong enough wave to bring it all crashing down, the fire balls falling from the sky and hiding first in a bus then a building (that was maybe 8-9 years ago that dream), to faces coming out of walls, to molestors, to a woman strapped to a Gurnee in a room surrounded by glass, I have even dreampt Houdini
Had a museum near somewhere I could only think was near New Orleans because it was a bayou, there was killers looking for someone, I found a walk-in talkie, and had to swim down a creek until I came across a native tribe who somehow spoke English and was thrilled I was Canadian and got us help. In that dream I came across a half eaten deer and I could smell the rotten flesh. This wasn’t the first time, I have even dreampt of being at my own wedding and stepping away and went down by the water where there was a dead moose and again all I could smell was rotten flesh. I wake up half the time more tired then when I went to bed. I am mentally wiped all day long which leads to depression as I feel like I’m completely useless. Cloudy days are the worse because I’m already tired and then add that on. I have had to 100% cut all caffeine anytime after 2pm or I’m guarenteed my spouse will be waking me up asking if I’m okay or I’ll wake up crying. As it’s been said on here, I can go in and out of awake and asleep and be thrown right back into the same dream over and over until I have completed what I was there to do, find who I have to find, protect who I have to. If I want it to stop I actually have to get up, go for a smoke outside and get air and pray when I go back to bed it stops. Even then it’s touch and go if I get thrown right back into that dream or not. I have recently started dream journaling. Would like to be more frequent with it but it’s hard when I’m so tired. So for now, I am trying to record re-occurring dreams. Who knows maybe they will be a movie one day lol. I write this to let others know your not alone. It’s hard, it’s so freaking hard and so exhausting. So if anyone has any suggestions, it would be great.