Lori, Volunteer Mentor has some really good insights - think it through! Babies are miracle from heaven but so much more... My autistic son has a lot of problems (raising a special needs child who needs extra care and help) and added health problems are another issue! God bless you in your decision - NEED plan A, B, C and in temporary emergency - who will help or who will raise the child; if something happen to you/ husband. You never know- how much support you will need!! I have NO family in Florida, my son can't drive or pay the bills and 4th grade level. I'm worried about my son when I'm gone, who will take care of him (I'm his entire world) husband is severe bi-polar and in/out of hospital lately and his bi-polar is triggered by my cancer and effecting him. Husband used to own - his own construction company; over crews, 2-kids , a house and new cars (those days are gone as we aged to 50's) It's a lot to think about but I never dreamed I would be diagnosed with cancer and this could take my life- Hoping you find answers and come up with plan of action. Trying to find resources, support and help before I exit this life and my son/husband gets the help they need! MY PRAYERS - and there is always adoption (abandon babies who need families)! It's a lot to think about and glad you can 1 child that is a miracle from GOD! Sending extra hugs to your family and decisions