It's hard not to freak out especially when it's something to do with our body. I've never been thru this before we so I feel like I'm stepping into the unknown. I didn't have a choice about surgery. He immediately told me I have no other option but surgery. Not sure why he chose the abdominal partial hysterectomy verses the laparoscopic way. I've had 3 cesarean births so I already know the pain I will be feeling and the recovery time of being cut open down there so not looking forward to that. I do hope you get a surgery date soon & get yours taken care of quickly so your mind can be at ease. My surgery is in 2 weeks on the 28th & each day that passes & that date gets closer, the more scared & nervous I get because I still fear the unknown...not knowing the worse until he opens me up. Looks like you are having to do the same...fear the unknown and that's scary for us so I know exactly how you feel. Had my tumor just been cystic it wouldn't be so bad but because it's complex and solid and growing is not good according to my Dr. But I can surely keep you updated on what I find out when I wake up from surgery and I will keep you in my prayers as well 😊❤️🤗