Depression, Anxiety, Love, Emotional Dependency, Emotional Attachment

Hi all,

I have depression for ~10 years. I am a 25 yr old male. 3 years ago, I met someone. While I rarely fall in love with others, this person has violated this rule. We are both men of the same age. I do not know why I loved him since or early relationship. Do not misunderstand it - it is not a sexual relationship. Since then, it has caused me some difficulties, depression and anxiety:

• I like talking to him and being around him

• Being around him is insatiable; the more you do it, the more you feel the desired to continue doing it - like addiction

• I feel irritated if he spends time with a friend other than me

• The more I hug him, the more thirst I feel to do so

• If he is in a place, I consider him to be the most important person there

• I worry and check if he reads my texts or not. In group chats, I only do so for him

• If I see him suffering, I get extremely irritated about it and try to do what I can to stop this. I do not feel the desire to do so when seeing other sufferers

• I love him more than my love to others, combined !!

• I feel emptiness when being away from him - I need periodic meeting with him

• I need his love and approval for happiness

• Again, this is not a sexual desire - it is some other sort of desire

• all of the above causes drop in my focus and mental abilities

What is this guys? Love, emotional dependency, emotional attachment? Waht do you recommend and advise? Thanks