Hello @kazeiler, welcome. Thank you for pouring your heart out and explaining your health history. I'm sorry for your struggles. It definitely is not easy being in the position you are in physically and emotionally, but rest assured there is hope. I'm 52 and have been through my share as well. There were times when I felt less than, depleted and no sense of who I was, but I'm doing better now and it took a lot of work and determination. Sometimes hope lurks in small places you may have not have discovered yet, and sometimes that means being incredibly brave to conquer thinking outside of the box and making small changes one moment, one step, one day, at a time.

It's obvious you want to feel human again or you would not have come to Connect asking for help. We aren't doctors but we sure can share our experiences and offer positive, encouraging support to you. Who is your support system currently? Are there friends and family that you depend on?