Jersey Girl...you and I are kindred spirits! I am also a fighter, and have fought the good fight for justice (especially in Healthcare system) to the point that my mental and physical health suffered. I've been fighting for my daughter's health since I was 26 (she was 4yo) and that saga lasted all of her childhood and into adulthood (she has 4 autoimmune illness). I'm so grateful that she is also a fighter and takes excellent care of her health. Now, I am fighting for my health. A couple of egotistical docs have "fired" me (lol) when I dared challenge them. But it is exhausting to always be on alert, and it wasn't doing me any good apparently. So, I have also stopped swimming upstream, at least not in a blatant manner anymore. I went from 100% adrenaline to cruise control and it is much calmer in my head! I still need to remind myself often to chill out! The world isn't coming to an end because I carry a torch to medical miracles. So, I sleep better and I walk 3 mi a day and that helps. Sometimes I just need to get out of my own way.