Thanks for the comment and support.
I just finished sawing and sanding enough wood to make about 15 presses for the flowers I collect, press and then use to make greeting cards. My cards are quite beautiful, and a friend is going to help me start selling them online.
Something happened to me last Friday while I was visiting a friend who I had felt like was a sister to me. This individual was in fact, the first agent on my advance healthcare directive and my emergency contact. She was also going to go with me to my upcoming appointment with the liver specialist as she has a medical background. In any event, she is also bipolar and I am not quite sure what triggered her bipolar rage attack upon me, but I have to say her "attack" upon me felt visceral and I am still trying to process that and the loss of this friendship and also the support she had given to me. As a result, my symptoms have increased; more stomach issues, no appetite, itching and things of that nature.
I will discuss everything tomorrow with my therapist. I realize even more now that because of my illness I need to be around healthy and stable people. While we attend church together, I will now find a new one when I am ready to do so. As I may have mentioned before, this disease or whatever is going on inside of me, has made me feel more empowered. I have to keep reminding myself that I have no control over what is going on, and try to remain focused on those things that bring me joy. My artwork and listening to music on my headphones is something I do to escape anxiety over my illness, lack of aggressive treatment etc. I am also fortunate to have others in my life who I can trust not to "go off" on me as this person did last week.