If you feel better on antibiotics, then you have empirical proof that one aspect of your disability is a bacterial or "X" infection that is susceptible. Before I started infusing Hizentra in 2014 for a severely impaired immune system, the multiple infections I harbored defied most antbiotics. Sulfa was the last effective infection fighter, prescribed for a sinus infection that had spread throughout the sinuses in my head to my ears and chest. Doc said, "Stay on the meds until you are out of the woods." I was more than willing to comply. I wonder if your situation may be similar in that your body is not dealing effectively with your pathogens without medical help. If so, you may need to stay on the antibioics until your infection is adequately suppressed so it doesn't flare again when the antibiotics are removed. Have you changed your diet or taken supplements that support and strengthen your immune response? All the best for finding answers and healing.