Yeah I feared living in a cardboard box under the Interstate. That fer sure didn’t happen but I know where you’re coming from on that. You’ll be surprised how well these things work out. Btw your employer may well have a mental health counseling provider arrangement you can call.
Employers are way more understanding than you may think. But if you’re experiencing an emergency call 911 or go to an Emergency Room. That’s why they call it an Emergency Room. It was tough for me to reach out for help, too, but you’ve taken the big step to do so. Good start!