Just finished reading all of this. Left me with a lot of emotions; some I can't figure out yet. In 13 days I will be 88 and I am focusing on trying to stay independent. Except for house cleaning, I can do everything myself - including driving. My husband and I were married for 59 years. I have no words to explain how I miss him so much. Because shortly after his death I had to have a complete hip replacement. Finally coming to the end of physical therapy. Then I have to find a way to do my exercises. Hopefully knowing that these exercises will keep me independent will help. Have not had the funeral yet because of my hip surgery. That is coming up October 31st. He was a Korean veteran and wanted to be buried in a military cemetery and he will. I thought he would get a kick of having his remains interred on Hallowe'en. At that point a door in my life will be closed. What then? At my age, is it worthwhile to open another door and see what is behind it? Or should I just wait quietly for my own death? Have to do some heavy thinking about this. I so enjoyed the Bill of Rights because it is so on point and true. The last thing I did for him was having him brought home to me so he could die in his own home and in his own bed with me. That memory will never leave me. My one and only love.

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