But what if everything goes right?? ☺️ That’s my way around excessive worry. I just don’t let it consume me anymore. It’s important to face your fears. It gives you the control over your future. Anxiety is nothing more than projecting negative thoughts about the future. I’ve written to other members before about What Ifs and how they can just be overwhelming!
So, ‘what if’ your current condition does escalate and that proverbial other shoe drops? You have to ask yourself, what’s the worst that can happen? What do you fear the most about this ‘watch and wait’ diagnosis? Is it the fear that you won’t live? Is it the fear of facing chemo? Life changes? Or??
I went through this with my Acute Myeloid Leukemia. Though I didn’t have the watch and wait period, it just hit like a roaring freight train out of nowhere in 3 week’s time. Statistically it wasn’t good. I’m not a numbers girl so the odds didn’t phase me a bit. Unlike my husband, who is all about stats and numbers…he didn’t share my, ‘Pffft this isn’t going to take me out, attitude’. 3 years later, I’m proof of Better Living through Chemistry and I’m my own statistic. ☺️ I bought myself more time with my treatment and never gave up hope that it would work. I had a goal, and that was to live at all cost. If I didn’t make it, then I had a good run with the knowledge that I fought to the end. It’s pretty satisfying and now I fear nothing. (Ok I’m still not keen on centipedes).
So, if you’re an excessive worrier, what is it you fear the most?