Thank you both for replying. I have always known there was something "wrong" with me but never knew what it was. I am now in therapy and will have to talk this through with her. I have already mentioned about the issues with my son. How come everyone knew except me? Am I stupid, clueless, or what? Additionally I have learned that I come across as nasty. That threw me for a loop. So just had more bad stuff heaped on my head. I feel that the best thing I can do for myself is just hide. I do not want to go anywhere and have to worry if people are thinking I am nasty when I am not. I wish I could understand what is going on.