I just finished reading a novel which I enjoyed (The Boardwalk Bookshop by Susan Mallery, published 2022) which deals with some of the issues we are discussing here. I found it helpful to read how these characters dealt with the emotional wounds in their lives.

Today please be gentle with yourself; be kind and supportive. Use positive affirmations to support your efforts to heal yourself. If you have a garden, pick a bouquet to enjoy indoors. Beauty is nurturing. Smile at yourself in the mirror. Sending positive endorphins through your body is necessary for good health!!

The Bible says "A merry heart does good like a medicine." But without unwanted side effects!!
You are worth it!!