Thank you very much.
It's good that this helps you! What a clever plan.

And how sad to have lost your wife. I so understand the having to do something 'tomorrow'. It adds some energy, right?
As a child I told myself to find something to look forward to every night or else I would die because I was so depressed and bullied. It turned me into The Great Anticipator!

The Czech recipe: I am very curious.

It's not as if I am actively feeling lonely all the time; I keep busy with work, checking client work and so on, taking care of my little household (cats and I). This helps me not think about it. It's the times when it sinks in that again: no one called, for instance. Although I must say I am now completely used to it. It's not something I now still actively feel bad about, it's more the fact of it all that makes me sad. Maybe from all this realising how lonely I am will sprout a new person who thinks 'loneliness is just in my head'. I am rather awkward with others though, not used to a lot of socialising. I tend to really be myself. If someone asks me something I answer with the truth, or simply don't answer. If I ask "Hey, how are you doing?" I really do expect people to elaborate if I am on a friendly basis with them 😊😊😊