I was diagnosed with Crohn's 5 yrs ago on my 50 yr routine colonoscopy...at the time I was asymptomatic.
I'm now in my 3.5 th yr of an abusive marriage...the stress is so bad that it has activated the disease. I'm in so much stomach pain and nausea...especially when I try to eat.
When she screams at me...alot...my stomach immediately goes into spasm...which I take bentyl...kinda helps...bud.steroid med made it hard to breathe....im allergic to nsaids....I dont want stuff with dangerous side effects....im taking probiotics...2 different bottles...plus nutrition shakes from dietician from VA. I cut out a lot of fatty foods and gluten....my dietician told me chrohns pts can't break it down...
I'm building up strength...locking myself in my meditation room to get away from her and let my mind heal...it helps some too...relax cds...
I still have bloating even though I'm losing weight...so my tummy looks big...even though I've lost recently 30 lbs.
I'm really scared about all this. My gi Dr said my ct scan showed swelling of my colon.....and my labs were of someone with chrohns...what that means..idk..but I don't like it.
I cry all the time. I'm full of fear. I dont want to die yet. I beat so many things in my life as a result of the Army....I want to live in peace so bad.....this is my time to enjoy life...not to be sick.
Yes....I am taking care of the instigator... Its in the process.
I'm afraid of how that's going to go over as well.
My colonoscopy is in August. I just need a ride....bc I can't drive myself....and my wife has to go to a hearing..surprise surprise....
I'm lying in bed now thinking....I wish I ate some fruit or veggies 2day...I feel so out of whack....like I eat poorly. That's not usually me.
I need to exercise too...that was also my life...she screwed that up 2.....the pain makes it hard...plus fatigue and weakness.....but I'm getting stronger with shakes and liquid vitamins. I need to build muscle back.
I'm still scared. Thought about it today in my room and started hyperventilating. I think it was a panic attack
I'm eating Ativan to calm down and sleep....its saving my butt....
No pun intended!! Lol.
I'll leave with that.....since it's kinda on the more humorous side.
Peace always. Aud.