So glad that you shared with us!! I can totally understand how you feel about having anxiety and fear or whatever your feelings are about going into surgery. In September of 2015 I went in to have female pelvic floor surgery and the doctor perforated my colon and put me in a stoma bag. It took several years to get over the physical and emotional trauma of that experience. How then can we just walk back into surgery. I was in surgery all day with 3 surgeons trying to fix me. Stick with us I love this group.